You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself
but you killed everyone else around you too.
this need to be on everyone’s blog
this makes me think..
God bless whoever wrote this.
im crying
I never usually reblog things like this.. but if it saves just one persons life… please take thime to read this even if you think there is no point in living. Please.
List of Non-sexual forms of intimacy
Watching tv/movies together
going to events together like carnivals, festivals etc.
going on dates like to the movies or shopping
Sharing secrets
hugs
sharing drinks
phone calls
talking
touching noses
cuddling
philosophical discussions
Hand holding
Sharing jokes
sharing smiles
laying your head on someone’s shoulder
linking arms
massages
tickling
playing with hair
scratching backs
tracing designs on arms
talking about the future
a hand written note
moving your head to their chest and listening to their heartbeat.
singing together or playing instruments together
dancing
feeding each other
drawing/writing on one another
Brushing your partners hair
sharing food
sitting knee to knee across from each other
Doing beauty treatments like facials or manicures, hair dying or face masks
reading books together
take care of your partner when sick
talking about the relationship (how I feel with you, How I feel w/ this relationship)
cooking together
Head-scratches
hugging
discussions about yourselves (like flaws, shortcomings, passions, stuff)
being physically/emotionally vulnerable
just sleeping together,
an actual open honest conversation
bathing and taking care of hygiene together
butterfly kisses
nuzzling
telling on-the-fly stories
meditating or sharing spirituality
grooming
sharing hobbies
studying
sharing personal stories
shaving
seeing each other without make-up or all dressed up
moral support for major events
crying, sharing emotions, comforting each other
listening to someones heartbeat or breathing
camping/hiking
sleepovers
being with animals together
going on trips together
sharing clothes/jewelry/personal items
Sharing online social media
cleaning someone else’s living space
going with them to a doctor/therapist
doing art together
kissing different body parts
making out
volunteer together
work together
talking about wants and desires
experience new things together
do an extracurricular together
play games together
play sports together
walking together
being respectful and kind to one another (helping them do things, open doors for them etc.)
Sharing responsibilities (chores, babysitting etc.)
giving each other presents, special things from the heart
talking about and respecting each others boundaries
public displays of affection
grooming in front of each other
wrestling or play fighting
texting/talking online
looking in each other’s eyes
complimenting each other
falling asleep over skype or chat
making faces at each other
sky watching
write poetry
inside jokes
respect each other
tell them how you feel about them
kiss and touch different parts of the body
get to know each other better (playing 20 questions)
go for a ride together
close your eyes and memorise each others faces with your fingers
walk arm in arm
make a playlist together
make up your own words or slang
go out to eat
list each other’s best features
bring your faces close without touching and feel each other breath
Go shopping together
throw a party or other event together
leave love notes
exercise together
exchange something meaningful
try to have a whole conversation with only eye contact and facial expressions
sit back to back and feel each other’s heart breat
learn their favorite food and make it
run errands together
look at photos together
take photos together
go people watch
have a staring contest
learn something new together
take turns leading each other on a nature walk blindfolded
get to know each others family and friends
draw or sculpt each other
paint each other’s bodies
play with kids together
practicing a skill together
sharing food
being in comfortable clothes together
waving goodbye
being comfortable with each other’s bodily functions
partner touching affectionately without asking
touching a partner affectionately without asking
partner touching affectionately in public
touching a partner affectionately in public
being partially undressed with parnter
being completely naked with a partner
direct eye contact
looking at genitals
talking about your or your partner’s body
any others you can think of?
(via infinantlov3)
